I think, think and think...

Sandown Way, Newbury     Jan 07, 2010     9:20 PM     Thursday


Working from home is always a fun and thanks to this severe weather and dense snowfall, which has hit UK in the worst possible way in the past 40 years, the fun doesn't seem to end too soon :)


After all, "How beautiful it is to do nothing, and then to rest afterward.”


Jokes apart, it has been a rather sober day. Or shall i say sober week so far. For some of my friends. And eventually for me. There has been a wave of continuous disappointment and sadness flowing through the icy winds of my surroundings which constructed a cerebral environment and coerced me to ponder. And the moment i start, the moment i am gone. In to an eternal world of thoughts, subjective and objective, good and bad, positive and negative, beautiful and ugly, real and virtual !!!


No wonder i don't have much hairs left on my head.


Yeah, i just constantly think. Think about the situations people are in. Think about the reasons behind. You give your best shot in terms of logic and practicality to them, but then you don't always succeed, do you? I struggle to find out answers to most of the situations they've ever been because every story is a brand new story. A new cause. A new result. But you still advise. You propose some solutions. Spread some rays of hope. Somebody very rightly said "There is always hope" and so shall i believe it and try to put this belief across. Sometimes you win. Most of the times you Fail !!!


I shall not fail to describe that more often than not, we all face these situations. Sometimes, we speak, which we all prefer to. Sometimes, we've got to listen, which we don't desire to. In my case, no surprises, i choose to speak on both the occasions :) Only I can convince myself. So, no one even tries.


The situation i fear the most and even hate to mention is termed as "depression". I loathe this word. Not to even mention its consequences. As they say, "The depressed people don't need a reason to kill themselves, they need a reason not to". I won't even touch that topic any further. It's best to leave it here. Closed. And folded.


Majority of the times, I've seen people crying due to heartaches or job losses. Heartaches due to different reasons. Sometimes, it is HIM, while most of the times it is HER. I know this would stir a heated argument, but with all due respect to girls, this was just an ugly joke. I don't exactly recall where i read this -  " A few heartaches are essential for one's complete evolution" or may be this is a nascent thought which just came out of my mind. I don't completely agree to this. Neither i refute it entirely. You need not allow someone to break your heart to get the desired maturity. But yes, you do need some pain, suffering to become more strong, and more practical. But whatever the situation is, you've got to believe one thing - you can't change it by shedding tears, but you can surely obliterate it by rising gears !!!


"Take pride in your pain; you are stronger than those who have none”